Well the door is closed on this last relationship, at least the romantic part. We have agreed to stay friends, which for the first time on this lesbian journey, I believe it can happen.
In a nutshell, it just wasn’t meant to be. What I have learned especially from this relationship, is how to really love a person more unconditionally, and I respect that in the end, we were not compatible in that way.
It wasn’t easy at first, I tried to process a lot and to understand where and how things went wrong, but then it all clicked, it made sense. It was actually very cathartic in a way, there are no ties that bind anymore, and we are both free to meet someone someday who might just be the one we are looking for. I really want her happiness and I know she wants mine.
We hung out recently at it was fun and light and less stress, I guess anything is possible. I am learning more each time I connect with someone, whether it be friend or romantic partner. I guess it is true, you learn what you want and what you don’t need.
I’m going to a mixer this weekend. I am very social, extroverted and love meeting new people. My goal (and not to offend anyone reading this, this is just my preference, what I know I hope to find in a partner) is to meet someone who is laid back, kind, funny (God yes, a sense of humor!), big smile, expressive eyes, doesn’t judge people on the things they eat, is not obsessed with politics, loves to travel, and lights up a room.
Not too much to wish for, right?:)